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Friday, June 10, 2011

update.


our whole team in front on Jubilee Hall at KKU


my ministry partner. most incredible girl ever known.
also quite the feisty little chiwawa!
and no, im not talking about the actual one in the picture.


most of my ministry group. throwin' what we know!


sunset from our balcony. i love this city.


dinner at Jaybaan with some freshies


some NEU girls at church


a little taste of the night market. such a fun place.


a very typical meal here.


one of the Buddhist temples of worship.

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so, take my heart.

"brokeness is what i long for
brokeness is what i need
brokeness is what You want for me,

so take my heart and mold it
take my mind, transform it
take my will, comform it
to Yours oh, Lord"

i have never been faced with the sobering reality Hell on such a daily basis. well, i have, i just selfishly and ignorantly didn't see it. but, now i do. and i see it all around me.

there are 10,000 freshman alone here at KKU. 10,000. there are 18 of us (CCPers), approximately 30 COT staff, and a handful of Thai believers. and only 0.7% professing christians in Thailand. talk about sobering.

i have vented to my sister and parents that there is so much going on in my heart and in my mind since arriving here that i dont know how to process it all. it would be impossible. the way i said it to my roommate is "i have so many thoughts running through my head that i dont know what to think about them and so its impossible to word my thoughts because i cant even think about what i think about my thoughts" if that doesn't sound confusing then i dont know what does. and thats almost exactly how i feel. i think?

my heart is being torn in so many different ways. if there is an emotion out there- i could almost swear on my life that i have felt it in these past 2 weeks at some point.

i would love to ramble and allow you to decide what you think about how our ministry is going, or if we are having fun or not, or if we are being effective or not, or any other conclusion you might come to from reading this blog... but the truth is. i dont even know where to start. i dont know how i feel. i dont know what im thinking.

all i know is that God is so much bigger than i will ever comprehend and that i just have to trust that. i know that God is sovereign and i just have to trust that. i know that greater things are yet to come for KKU, for Khon Kaen, for Thailand, for Asia, for our world. for you and for me. and i just have to trust that.

i wish i could pour my heart out here and give you even the slightest bit of how intensely the Lord is revealing things to me, but i cant. brokeness is what i prayed for and brokeness is what i have received. praise the Lord for answered prayers.

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you are beautiful, no matter what they say.

to every girl/woman who has ever questioned her worth, not felt beautiful, thought about never eating again, struggled with an eating disorder, allowed a guy to make you feel inadequate or anything else negative. (so, every girl that ever reads this blog post..) go read this article.

my dear friend Sarah Heinss wrote it. i like to refer to her as Tinky. she is an unbelievably talented, strikingly beautiful, bursting with joy, woman of God. i love her to death. i love her writing. i love her vulnerability. and, honestly, i think you will too and greatly benefit from it.

here she wrote an article. totally unedited. read it. i bet you need to hear this truth.


(if you want to see how talented she is... check this site out!)

more to come on Thailand as soon as i figure my thoughts out!!

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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

God of this city.

please take the time to actually read this. i know it seems long- but it is worth it. it will rock you. this song was written about the country i am in right now and for the people that i am daily surrounded by. this is the promise i have been clinging to since i arrived here. this has been my prayer since here- that God would continue in the things that he is doing here...

"In 2006 Belfast-based modern worship band Bluetree took part in a short-term missions trip to Pattaya, Thailand. It was the first time the band had been out on a trip like this, and they came back with something they never expected. In the story below, Bluetree lead vocalist/guitarist Aaron Boyd talks about the trip, its impact and a song that can’t sit still.

I was frightened. I mean, not just a little bit – but a whole lot. I blame our Mission Pastor; he’d done such a great job on us – warning about the dangers that we were up against in one of the world’s most infamous destinations for sex tourists – that we spent the first day or so in Pattaya, Thailand, wondering what we’d got ourselves into.

None of us in the band are much good at sensing things, but there was an intense darkness in the air around the place that we just couldn’t miss. As we were in the city to lead worship – along with a bunch of other Christians – it seemed like there was something going on there, something beyond what we could see. It all added to the fear.

After a few days the nerves started to lift. We were feeling that even though we’d been busy we’d not been busy enough. We wanted to play more and started nagging our Missions Pastor to get us more opportunities to do what we were most passionate about; singing songs to God in the midst of all that darkness.

We ended up getting the chance to play in this venue called the Climax Bar. It’s in the city’s red light district and to get into it you have to walk past a flight of stairs leading up to another club – the sort that has a pole outside and girls hanging about or dancing trying to hook people in. We just put our heads down and kept on walking.

The Climax Bar isn’t a big place. There’s a small dj booth on the left and a stage that’s wide and shallow on the right. We were setting up in the afternoon and it was all fun, but as it got darker and we started to play, things began to change. After two hours we’d played every worship song that we knew, but it wasn’t time to finish. Something was up.

Growing up in Belfast means that we’ve grown used to people crying in church, begging God to change our city. I don’t know whether you become numb to it all, but I do know that I had never really had those kinds of feelings for a particular place. It all changed that night in Pattaya. The feelings of compassion took over and I started just to sing out what I knew was true about who God is to the people of the city. And that was when it felt like things started to happen.

I remember looking over to my left and seeing a group ofGod of This City English guys in the street. My guess is that they were just over to buy time with cheap Thai girls and do whatever they wanted with them. But you could see their surprise as they heard the truth deep in the words we were singing out; that God was a part of this place, that greater things were to come, that there is a light that eliminates the darkness.

Something was happening, but whether it was in us or beyond us we couldn’t tell. All we knew was that we’d been in the middle of something we’d not experienced before.

On the bus ride home and over the next few days we nailed the rest of it, but the way the song arrived that night was pretty much as Chris Tomlin ended up recording it on the latest Passion album.

There’s one part of the song that came along after the night: ‘Where glory shines from hearts aloud with praise for you and love for you in this city…’

I can still remember those girls who were being sold on the street whenever I sing these words. Their lives are caught up in so much pain, but I’m convinced that they’ve got a better song to sing, I’m convinced that there’s glory and praise that can shine from their hearts and lives.

When the trip was over we came back to Belfast and kind of knew that something significant has taken place. The first time we ever played that song – apart from in Pattaya – was at Manafest, a monthly Youth For Christ event we were regulars at. We did the song, and I think it took me about half an hour to tell the story I was crying so much. A little later we were opening for Chris Tomlin at the Odyssey Arena. He heard it then and ended up adopting ‘God Of This City’ as Passion’s anthem of the moment.

As a band we just want to be obedient to whatever God’s put in front of us and God’s blessed us with a song that’s shouting Bluetreeacross the world. Off the back of it all – the touring, the sales and royalties – we’re going to be able to support plenty of different projects that help transform lives that would otherwise be trapped.

What I believe shouldn’t happen is this: ‘God Of This City’ should not become just another Evangelical anthem that we sing to make ourselves feel good. It must do more than just please our ears or give us goose-bumps; it has to propel us out.

There’s so much pushing us into ourselves these days that I think we need daily reminders that we are called to be God’s hands and feet, that we are called to practically change people’s lives, that we are called to actually be hope in a hopeless situation. We – the Church – must be the source of love where there is no love. We should worry less about condemning the things that are wrong with the world, and put more of our energies in to putting those things right. We need to be the church that deals in love, not in hate. And we’re called to do all this with the knowledge that greater, and greater and greater things are still to come.

Search for ‘God Of This City’ on YouTube and you’ll see that so many cities and towns around the world have used the song to help bring into focus the needs around them. But I don’t think that the song is there to be used as some kind of tool to ‘claim’ a city. It has to be accompanied by the actions – not by begging God to come and revive our city, but by getting hold of the idea that we have the responsibility to change the city, to be hope to the hopeless and peace to the restless. The truth is simple; we are God’s hands and feet.

We could sit and beg God to change India, Pattaya, Cambodia or whatever other oppressive situation you could mention, but I don’t think that’s the point: I don’t think it’s up to us to twist God’s arm into fighting injustice, I think it’s up to us to get on and fight it ourselves, to look around and realise quite how well God has equipped us to transform our communities and global neighbours. Like I said before; we’re God’s hands and feet, if we want to be serious about our faith we don’t have any choice other than to act.

That’s what the song’s all about, and that’s why the stories that grow from it will be told by people we may never had heard of – everyday Christians putting their faith into action and transforming their world, one person at a time.

“God Of This City” has become one of those unique soundtracks; a declaration of the truth and an encouragement to all who hear it to believe it. That growth means the song has now travelled far further than the band itself. “God Of This City” seems to have struck a chord, not just with groups and churches, but also individuals who are no longer satisfied with living out a short-sighted faith."

(http://www.titletrakk.com/music-interviews/bluetree-story-beyond-the-song-feature.htm)

after being here and getting to know these Thai's, this song brings tears to my eyes. there is so much more that God calls us to than a simple, comfortable, easy life. even if through what you feel called to, you live in a suburb home, in a comfortable neighborhood, or an upper-class lifestyle, thats so awesome but it doesn't mean that you get to sit back and relax. our neighbors, people at our schools, at the country club, and even in our churches- people desperately need to see the urgency of the Gospel because there are people that desperately need this freedom and this hope.

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Saturday, June 4, 2011

cobra boxing.

this is what we did yesterday...

cobra boxing. from abby cunningham on Vimeo.

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hallelujah.

there are so many things that i would love to blog about and fill you in on. so many fun things that we have gotten to do. cobra boxing, thai aerobics, the freshie games, a girls nail-painting party, and so much more. but, right now... those things dont really seem to matter in comparison to whats going on in my heart.

the first week has been unbelievably hard. the Lord has really surfaced alot of insecurities and alot of sin. just being around this body of believers who want the Lords glory to be known has shown me such a lack of passion on my part. some of the people on this team (both CCP and the Co-Thailand team) have absolutely blown me away with their desire for Gods renown to be known. i have been seeing more and more how Jesus is Lord of all nations. not just mine.

today i got to go with Pbaan and the girl she disciples and join in on their bible study. and it was then that it dawned on me- discipleship is a cross-cultural thing. mind blowing right?! as we sat there and talked about boys, insecurities and fashion over some coffee and cake i realized that this is no different than what discipleship is in America. it is life on life. the pouring out of ones heart into another.

Pbaan then stopped translating for me so that they could really go deep in the word and as they studied their bible in Thai, i studied mine in English. same thing- different language. same thing- different culture. same thing- different side of the world. same thing. same God.

then i got to sit there and listen to them pray to the same God, but in Thai. i don't think i have ever really longed for Heaven until now. eternity with all tongues and all nations bowing down and praising the One True. hallelujah.

then tonight i sat there with 2 other teammates and listen to some thai's share their story and how the Lord brought them to himself. one of them said "i did not believe in the power of God, i believed in the power of Myself". how often is that you and me? it is because of my sin, because of my belief in myself that i am so screwed up! ha. it is because i so often do not believe that God is more than enough. and it is for that reason that i am so humbled before the foot of the cross.

it is... "for this reason I bow my knees before the Father,
from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named,
that according to the riches of his glory
he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being,
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—
that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
may have strength to comprehend with all the saints
what is the breadth and length and height and depth,
and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge,
that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think,
according to the power at work within us,
to him be glory in the church
and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations,
forever and ever.
Amen."
-ephesians 3:14-21

i have been so challenged by this body that i am surrounded by. i have been challenged to go back to my school and be a light. i did not understand what it meant to be unashamed of the Gospel until i got here.

praise be to God for the miraculous ways that He works!

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Monday, May 30, 2011

driving.

Phil's Fantastic Voyage from Matt & Erin Francisco on Vimeo.


this just gives you a small taste of 1. how hilarious and awesome my team is and 2. how INSANE the driving is here. please, enjoy!

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Sunday, May 29, 2011

rambling.

there is so much that i want to write about. so much that i have already learned. i feel like someone turned on a fire hydrant and stuff is just being shoved at me and i dont really know how to digest it all. so, i decided im going to ramble. stream of conscious kinda thing...

2 nights ago we went and ate dinner with our ministry leader and partner. (thats a co-staff thai and the students that they disciple that we will be partnering with when we go on campus) as we sat there eating some really interesting food that i still dont know how i feel about, we went around and shared our testimonies and what the Lord has been doing in our hearts and lives. i had some of the most mixed emotions during that time...

my ministry partner, who is seriously one of the coolest girls i have ever met, blew me away with her dedication to the gospel. when she became a christian, her family totally cut her off from everything and she was totally on her own. when i asked her if that ever made her waver in her faith or question what she now believed she said, and with a huge smile on her face, that if she did not stay with christianity, there would be no way her family would have a hope beyond hell. that hit me like a load of bricks. seeing these people who have given everything for the sake of the Gospel is so convicting to me. i sit at school acting like its some big thing that because im a christian i shouldn't _________ whereas these girls want to give up everything because they understand the immense joy that comes in surrendering. i want a faith like theirs.

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in our quiet times yesterday we read in Mark about when the Lord called his first disciples... before that though the title is 'Jesus begins his ministry' saying

"...Jesus came into Galilee, proclaiming the gospel of God and saying,
'The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand:
repent and believe in the Gospel"

that simple. repent and believe. i make it seem like its so much harder than that. but thats it. i have been called to proclaim this gospel of good news. to proclaim that all God asks is for us to repent from our sin and believe in Him.

so many times i see people who say 'im almost there i just need more time to think about it' or something along those lines in regard to becoming a christian. thats when this next section blew me away. because, even now that i am a christian, i still do that! i say, ' oh i see that thats a sin, but i just need more time before im really convicted about it or really need to repent' seriously?

"and Jesus said to them,
"Follow me and I will make you become fishers of men."
and immediately they left their nets and followed him."

immediately. not well let me decide if i feel like it then i will. not let me go say bye to my family and make sure its ok with them. not im busy doing what i want right now but i will next week when its more convenient. no. immediately they followed him. i want a faith like that.

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we had our first Sabbath yesterday. i wont lie, i may or may not have shed a tear. i have never loved a worship service as much as i loved ours yesterday. our leader, matt, prayed after and thanked the Lord for giving us a small taste of what Heaven will be like and that was so true. in the service, we were gathered in a gym, that only had fans as air conditioning, in some chairs. but it was the most beautiful church i have ever seen. we all gathered and sang worship songs in Thai and in English.

"After this I looked, and behold, a great multitude that no one could number,
from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages,
standing before the throne and before the Lamb,
clothed in white robes, with palm branches in their hands,
and crying out with a loud voice,
“Salvation belongs to our God who sits on the throne,
and to the Lamb!”
-Revelation 7:9-11

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this is all just some of what the Lord has been teaching me. its not close to all of it though. all that being said, it has definitely been hard. adjusting has been difficult. getting used to the food, the time change, the piece of cement that we sleep on, the language, and overall just the difference in cultures has been alot to figure out at once.

we also brought alot with us. or at least i did. and not physical stuff- i mean things going on in our hearts. struggles we are fighting, emotions that we dont know what they are, frustrations we have from certain things... so in the midst of working through things in my heart with the Lord on top of being thrown into this totally unknown culture has been alot for me.

luckily i have a baller roommate (and team). we were talking about this the other night and she reminded me of what Moe, one of our directors, keeps saying- that we are "in Christ". and because of that, we are more than adequate, more than able, and completely strong. its so great being reminded of that each day even though i definitely dont feel like it that majority of the time.

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on a lighter note, its so fun talking to the thais! they laugh at us so hard when we butcher words. 'ba ba bo bo jing jing' is by far my favorite thing to say! it means 'very crazy'. we were talking with some of the thai girls about what music they like and one said Lady Gaga to which we all started laughing and saying 'lady gaga ba ba bo bo jing jing!!' they also LOVE taylor swift. courtney has had alot of fun telling them that she lives in the same place at tswift ha. i met one girl yesterday, djrinka who is majoring in photography. we both got out our cameras and tried** to talk about why we love it.

also last night we ate dinner again with our ministry partners last night and milcah and i ate boiled pigs feet. and our friend Pbaan ate pigs blood. when in Thailand right?

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Prayer Request:
- We go onto campus for the first time today! pray for us to remember the little bit of Thai that we do, and that the Lord would give us and our ministry partners boldness is just talking to students
- Pray for our team. that we would continue getting to know each other and encouraging one another
- Praise the Lord that Matt Hill was found.
- Pray that the Lord would continue showing each of us what it is He has us to learn this summer.


Saturday, May 28, 2011

video.

sawateekaa! (hello in Thai)

http://vimeo.com/24353718

click here to watch a video of our team!!

also, here are the blogs of my other teammates just incase you want some extra reads!


(im working on getting everyone elses!)

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