the first week has been unbelievably hard. the Lord has really surfaced alot of insecurities and alot of sin. just being around this body of believers who want the Lords glory to be known has shown me such a lack of passion on my part. some of the people on this team (both CCP and the Co-Thailand team) have absolutely blown me away with their desire for Gods renown to be known. i have been seeing more and more how Jesus is Lord of all nations. not just mine.
today i got to go with Pbaan and the girl she disciples and join in on their bible study. and it was then that it dawned on me- discipleship is a cross-cultural thing. mind blowing right?! as we sat there and talked about boys, insecurities and fashion over some coffee and cake i realized that this is no different than what discipleship is in America. it is life on life. the pouring out of ones heart into another.
Pbaan then stopped translating for me so that they could really go deep in the word and as they studied their bible in Thai, i studied mine in English. same thing- different language. same thing- different culture. same thing- different side of the world. same thing. same God.
then i got to sit there and listen to them pray to the same God, but in Thai. i don't think i have ever really longed for Heaven until now. eternity with all tongues and all nations bowing down and praising the One True. hallelujah.
then tonight i sat there with 2 other teammates and listen to some thai's share their story and how the Lord brought them to himself. one of them said "i did not believe in the power of God, i believed in the power of Myself". how often is that you and me? it is because of my sin, because of my belief in myself that i am so screwed up! ha. it is because i so often do not believe that God is more than enough. and it is for that reason that i am so humbled before the foot of the cross.
it is... "for this reason I bow my knees before the Father,
from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named,
that according to the riches of his glory
he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being,
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—
that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
may have strength to comprehend with all the saints
what is the breadth and length and height and depth,
and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge,
that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think,
according to the power at work within us,
to him be glory in the church
and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations,
forever and ever.
i have been so challenged by this body that i am surrounded by. i have been challenged to go back to my school and be a light. i did not understand what it meant to be unashamed of the Gospel until i got here.
praise be to God for the miraculous ways that He works!